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The cousin of aleph and ayan\u00a0and name and creation,<\/p>\n

A for the apple, on the branch in the garden<\/p>\n

The one you know well, with the snake and the tree.<\/p>\n

A for forgetting, as in Alzheimers, aphasia, and anonymously me.<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

Believe me, it\u2019s true: In the beginning of memories bland<\/p>\n

the world crashed to the basement, through the fingers like sand.<\/p>\n

Now comes C for correction: That\u2019s a comb, not a fork, so take it out of your mouth.<\/p>\n

Can\u2019t remember the word for cereal, for cake, and for couch.<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

Can\u2019t remember, I can\u2019t, no I can\u2019t. Don\u2019t want to, no doubt.<\/p>\n

If D is a dare, dig a ditch deep as a scar and deposit me there<\/p>\n

inside all that I\u2019ve done and all that I did. Did<\/p>\n

it or known it, let it all fall deep inside.<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

Every damn book in the stacks, Austen to Yonnondio, all of it gone.<\/p>\n

The e that sounds like like A as in Neighbor and weigh,<\/p>\n

yes and fashion and facism, forget it, forget<\/p>\n

it just let it all be. I don\u2019t need it can\u2019t have it, forsook it so fuck it. It\u2019s gone<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

anyway. Except for a glove of fine lace,<\/p>\n

from elbow to wrist, and a silk Jacket I wore on August the fifth,<\/p>\n

when I was given away, and I gave up my name<\/p>\n

God help me why did I want so much to hold on to it so.<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

I just only, I want to\u2014no\u2014<\/p>\n

keep going keep going<\/p>\n

just want to<\/p>\n

Let go.<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

If M is the middle then I\u2019m at the end.<\/p>\n

Nothing to mend, yes, I\u2019ve gone round the bend. If only I\u2019d meditated<\/p>\n

more or stuck with the gym\u2014managed my mental<\/p>\n

affairs rather than cut fat to keep thin.<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

Maybe must maybe,<\/p>\n

No, now here I am. Nodding off while you talk there, nodding off in my chair.<\/p>\n

Noticing light bursts off in the air, while you smug as satin say nothing is there.<\/p>\n

Nothing is everything now, nothing to say<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

Nothing to do, nothing to wish for, no will to improve.<\/p>\n

Oh lord, yes it\u2019s true, O is the mouth, it\u2019s the maw, opening up to oceans of dark.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s the wheel that keeps turning beneath the train of no thought.<\/p>\n

Pray let me roll out with the whistle, go out with the tide. Pray leave me alone,<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

I need quiet to die. Quiet to quit this, to question<\/p>\n

no more. Quiet\u2019s a country where words are no longer at war.<\/p>\n

Quiet, I\u2019m coming. Quiet that\u2019s deep. Remembering nothing<\/p>\n

that\u2019s the holiest sleep. Stop<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

it already, stop<\/p>\n

calling me back. If T is the turning<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve abandoned the map. If T is for two,<\/p>\n

and two is for T, I\u2019m turning it over,<\/p>\n

take those saucers away. You\u2019ve lost and I\u2019ve won<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

if it\u2019s you versus me now, life versus death, if V is for Victory,<\/p>\n

I\u2019m holding my breath.<\/p>\n

Wax on and Wax off, I\u2019m out of the game.<\/p>\n

Wander and wander to the edges of time<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

a curtain of wonder, the harp\u2019s breath is now mine.<\/p>\n

The womb wished me here and the womb had its way.<\/p>\n

Exit stage left<\/p>\n

or exit stage right<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

if Y is for yes, then<\/p>\n

Z is for night<\/p>\n

and that snake in the garden<\/p>\n

I\u2019m on the tip of his tongue<\/p>\n

if A is forgetting<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

then Z<\/p>\n

is just<\/p>\n

Z.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"